Hitting The Wall

I have been going nonstop for about two weeks and today I have Hit the Wall. In my life that means, I need rest,I need to cry, and I need to seek Gods word and consulation to restore my spirit .I am either moving high speed or not at all, and this afternoon I am not moving at all! My foot hurts, my knee hurts, my head hurts, and my heart hurts. I LIKE to have a pity party every now and then so don't try and stop me. First, I did not have time to think about my mom yesterday ,it was her birthday. She has been gone for a little over two years. I just miss her some days. When I think about my girls and how much she loved hearing about and being with them,I just want to cry out and wish she could touch them. She would love up on Lauren's children, She would be so proud of Lucy and her cooking, she would glow knowing that Jeane Carroll was at MS. State and a Chi Omega.But, because I am a Christian I know she is in a better place. She is not confused because of her illness, she has everything she wants, she is whole and in the fathers arms. She is laughing with my daddy and seeing Mammaw (when she wants to!)I know its all better in heaven but the selfish part of me wants her here to be my mama..To give me approval and tell me I am going to be ok. It's hard when both your parents are not living. There is a certain element of no guilt with them not here but the wanting to see them in person is hard. I have so many memories wrapped up in them and after all, sometimes you just need your mama,no matter how old you are. Ok..I am over it, I said it! I am headed to the Psalms for comfort and proverbs for some wisdom. I am loving all of you...Robin